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I hate you!...Don't leave me...

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 1, 2008, 5:09 PM
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Aya Hirano
  • Reading: Aoi Yori Aoishi
  • Watching: Vampire Knight
  • Playing: Solitaire
  • Eating: Crispy delight's ( Chocolately goodness
  • Drinking: Juice
So you know what isn't so fun. Getting diagnosed with Borderline Personality disorder. Like I always knew there was something up with me ( and so did other people) But I always put it down to depression and anxiety. Turns out it was more than that. For anyone who doesn't know what BPD is, just google it. In a nutshell, Life is hell for me and I am now officially a freak....

Well maybe not a freak but something close to it. Although after having been diagnosed with it, It really does explain alot of things and puts stuff into perspective. It makes me realize why so many things in my life failed or just went horribly wrong, And why some people don't talk to me now. what makes me really mad though is the lack of knowledge alot of people have about this, Including doctors and shrinks. I mean if alot of people have this, why is so little known about it. What has helped though is a couple books I was recommended. They have proven to be very helpful and made me, and my girlfriend understand alot more about BPD.

It is really an awful mental disease to have and those of us that do have it know how hellish our lives are, For those who don't it makes trying to understand us near impossible...

All that I can hope for is that I can learn how to have a somewhat normal life and people who know me won't judge me...

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 23
  • Current Residence: Hamilton *ugh*
  • Interests: Anime, Karaoke, Writing, Cosplay, Pullips, Piercing, Etc..
  • Favourite movie: Miyazaki films.
  • Favourite band or musician: Evanescence, Ayumi Hamasaki..
  • Favourite genre of music: J-pop, Rock
  • Favourite artist: Clamp, Naoko Takeuchi, Lois Royo...
  • Favourite photographer: Myself
  • Favourite style of art: Manga
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod Video...
  • Wallpaper of choice: Anything anime..
  • Skin of choice: The one I am in...
  • Favourite game: Fatal Frame, Guitar Hero 3
  • Favourite gaming platform: Xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Hitomi from Escaflowne
  • Personal Quote: What nourishes me, Destroys me...
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil crayons, 03 Pigment liner

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~katsy-kimmeh:iconkatsy-kimmeh: May 19, 2008, 6:49:10 PM
*gasp*
Another AN cosplayer? Nice to meet you :3

What will you be wearing this year?

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~chibi-lenne:iconchibi-lenne: May 9, 2008, 5:34:49 AM
Y hallo thar XD Hope to see you at AN again!

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=psyconorikan:iconpsyconorikan: Apr 2, 2008, 8:54:47 AM
Thank you so much for the fav! :heart: I really appreciate it! :glomp: :blowkiss:

-Psy-chan

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*Honey-san:iconHoney-san: Apr 1, 2008, 11:55:43 AM Mood: Joy
Hi! :glomp:
Many thanks for the :+fav:
~jbailuk:iconjbailuk: Feb 10, 2008, 8:12:45 PM Mood: Joy
hey awesome pics, I thought they were all cool. "Buffy",lol.

"ANGEL" here. lol I know we haven't used those nicknames since KNOX.

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~lokefana:iconlokefana: Sep 24, 2007, 6:49:13 PM
Thanks for the favourite.

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*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Aug 17, 2007, 2:29:16 AM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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- Megzie -

Music Geek

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~SpyG:iconSpyG: Aug 9, 2007, 10:14:42 AM
Thx 4 the :+fav: ^^

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~drRansom:icondrRansom: Feb 14, 2007, 7:06:06 PM
Thanks for stopping by. I hope you like what you found.

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~UltraJugulator:iconUltraJugulator: Dec 31, 2006, 3:30:01 AM Mood: Joy
You got a very beautiful gallery.

Keep up the good work!

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~SetsunaKou:iconSetsunaKou: Oct 15, 2006, 7:08:20 PM
Thanks for adding me to your watchlist!! I really appreciate it!! Doumo arigatou!!!! ^^ :hug:

SetsunaKou :rose:

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~saturnfireflie:iconsaturnfireflie: Oct 10, 2006, 3:03:15 PM
awesome cosplay pics....
I really like the one from gundam seed !!!!!!!!
highfive!

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~ObsidionChaos:iconObsidionChaos: Oct 2, 2006, 4:37:29 AM
Hey Aby, this is Graham, Chippy and Megan's friend, wonder if u remember me from MANOS :blackrose:

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~saturnfireflie:iconsaturnfireflie: Oct 1, 2006, 5:42:45 AM Mood: Love
yah! 9 months ahead and we're all planned to go to AN
excited yet...
Im about to wet my pants..okay not so much.. anyway
you havent posted in awhile..well neither have I (so we're even)

but update your other stuffs..k?

I lurv to comment

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*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Sep 29, 2006, 9:32:08 PM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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~zvaella:iconzvaella: Sep 26, 2006, 10:21:18 PM Mood: Love
Oh thanks for the fav! I am glad you like it! :)
~dtbmnec:icondtbmnec: Sep 26, 2006, 7:21:59 AM
Ooooh didn't know you were on here! Haha! :D

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~DeadMoonDreams:iconDeadMoonDreams: Sep 25, 2006, 11:56:56 AM
nawwww x3 thank you for thy favourite! ^^

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~cataraina:iconcataraina: Sep 22, 2006, 11:37:30 PM
Hey Abigail! Thanks for addin me to your friends list. Haven't seen you in like forever. You like Within Temptation too? Cool! Your art is pretty awesome.

See ya
=brigette:iconbrigette: Jun 13, 2006, 10:56:09 AM
thanks for the fav! :D

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~Average-Kate:iconAverage-Kate: Jun 8, 2006, 6:58:57 PM
Thanx for the fav! Nice Gallery!

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*Eternal-Love-Club:iconEternal-Love-Club: Mar 17, 2006, 7:01:17 AM
Welcome! And thanks for joining us! =D

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~LarukuLover:iconLarukuLover: Mar 14, 2006, 9:40:10 AM
thank you for the fave!
:hug: